I am Apollo Lemmon and this is my lifestream. I invite you to join me in my exploration of an integral life. I am focused on discovering what it means to live a life rooted in integral consciousness and I explore spirituality, art, community, technology, fitness and other aspects of a fully engaged life. I am now living in Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada.

I can always be reached at apollo@apollolemmon.com

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28.06.07 | View Comments

Sitting with Books

A while ago I wrote “How to Sit” on finding an ideal way to sit when working. I decided on a silver exercise ball and have been happy to have that be the center of my work space.

But I’m also a bookworm and so have been tempted by a couple new designs that are making us book lovers and design geeks salivate. I’d be hard pressed to pick which of the two I like better of the Bibliochaise and the Bookshelf Cave, which are innovative integrations of chairs and bookshelves.

The Bibliochaise is an arm chair turned bookshelf and I love its aesthetic. Having all one’s book within reach while sitting and reading would be excellent for scholars who enjoy comfort. I’m in the process of cutting down my physical book collection to some essentials, so a setup like this would hold all my books nicely and look beautiful while doing so.

The Petri Project has a compelling little article on The Cave that explores the experience of being “simultaneously sheltered and engaged.” I found the concept as interesting as the design itself, in part because I’m fascinated by the tearing down of the wall between the private and public spheres and introducing intimacy into the latter. I imagine the cave in a cafe and having the nook disarming us in public.

The multitude of pigeons in London quickly became her muses. Ms. Adachi said she was struck by how the birds roosted in the alcoves of older buildings, just beneath the eaves of roofs. The pigeons went about their business in these nooks, seemingly oblivious to the pedestrians below, she observed.
Her goal was to make a piece of furniture that replicated the experience of dining al fresco on a busy sidewalk—a pastime, Ms. Adachi said, that makes someone feel simultaneously sheltered and engaged.
- “Curling Up With a Bookshelf

Which do you prefer? Is there a seating and bookshelf hybrid that I’ve missed?

28.06.07 | View Comments

Questions and Reflections X

If you could stop your aging indefinitely, would you?
Yes. The gift of longer, healthier and fuller lives is something I believe we should cultivate with as much vigor as possible. If we enable more people to also navigate development well we can create vibrant societies that merge the richness of experienced and developed humans with the vitality of our physical peak. Any chance we have to optimize life we should embrace.

Describe a sensation or feeling that lacks a specific word.
The sense of omnidirectional passion, attraction, care and bliss that comes with unhindered love is something I’ve never been able to anchor to a word. It seems undescribable, but when you share it with someone who knows, there’s no need to explain at all, is there?

What is your greatest struggle?
My greatest struggle is to overcome the doubts and contractions that keep me from living in the abandon of a life dedicated to evolution. Too often I allow unnecessary limits to be self-imposed and keep me from a dedication to practice. This seems to always cycle back for me, a great knot of internal and external excuses for not fully inhabiting my commitment to divinity.

What’s your favorite–or lucky–number?
Three is my number and it resonates throughout my experience. The Good, The Beautiful and The True; Buddha, Sangha, Dharma; I, We and It; and on and on the list of threes goes. Even when it comes to relationships I’ve found some of the most exciting moments have been when I’ve been with two others. Three seems to have some sort of universal significance, and certainly has a personal one in my case.

What’s one of your greatest strengths?
My sense of equanimity is my greatest strength, I believe. It allows me to be more responsive and present in any situation, especially painful ones. In work, in play and in love, it always proves to be invaluable to be composed even in the grips of the most passionate or turbulent moment.

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25.06.07 | View Comments

Reading Stack II

This entry follows up Reading Stack.

Today I have a fresh pile of books I’m about to dive into. I picked up the new issue of Shambhala Sun earlier this week and my friend Cerra sent me Black & White Nude Photography and Blankets. If my memory serves me well, Cerra was the first person I shared my excitement over Blankets with when I first read it, so it seems somehow special to receive a copy from her. It’s one of the books I treasure and love to share with others, so I imagine it will next be in circulation around this city. My last copy of the book went to Mexico.

Speaking of Blankets, its creator, Craig Thompson, has a blog at Doot Doot Garden. There you can find his brilliant artwork and learn more about his books. Be sure to look at the Blankets sketchbook to see the early glimmerings of the masterpiece that was to come.

I plan to free some books with Book Crossing soon, so if you’re in Halifax keep your eyes open for stray books.

If the book we are reading does not wake us, as with a fist hammering on our skull, why then do we read? So that it shall make us happy? Good God, we should also be happy if we had no books, and such books as make us happy we could, if need be, write ourselves. But what we must have are those books which come upon us like ill fortune, and distress us deeply, like the death of one we love better than ourselves; like suicide. A book must be an ice-axe to break the sea frozen inside us.
- Franz Kafka
22.06.07 | View Comments

In Cinq

In Cinq: eccentricity | creatively insightful | hopeful to love | broken hearted | genius

In Cinq is a portrait and poetry project created by Adria Balgassi. We are given intimate moments in the lives of people across the globe through a pairing of self-portraits with personal cinquains (in a less structured, contemporary form). In her words, “Welcome to the Cinq Drawer, an international community art project. 9 words + self portrait = cinqpic. Contribute yours today and get ‘in cinq’ with the world.”

And so I jotted down a cinquain according to her directions, dug up one of my favourite photos and sent it off. You can now find me among dozens of souls also featured on the site.

Apollo Lemmon's In Cinq photo

holonic
timeless, present
night, ocean, flame
wandering, stargazing
divine

You’ve snapped the self portraits. Now snap yourself a self poem. Reveal yourself in a 9-word cinquain.

  • 1st line: one word that represents you
  • 2nd line: two words that describe you
  • 3rd line: three words that show you
  • 4th line: two words that express you
  • 5th line: the essence of you, in one word

Some of my favourite In Cinqs:
girl, 28, Canada
girl, 41, escaping oz
guy, 27, Argentina
guy, 68, Orléans, France
girl, 21, stuck in the moment
guy, 22, Egypt (oldest spot on the planet)
girl, 19, Manhattan

19.06.07 | View Comments

Strangers in Paradise

It’s rare a book will bring me to tears, but as I finished reading Strangers in Paradise this week there were salty rivulets pouring down my face. The entire series packed emotional punch, but this ending was exquisitely teeming with love. Page after page of heartrending and soul-lifting beauty flowed by and I was left unquestionably satisfied with the story and deeply thankful to have been along for the ride these few years I’ve been keeping up with Terry Moore‘s masterpiece.

Strangers in Paradise is a romance, a crime drama, and a character-focused exploration of innumerable aspects of life. It also happens to be a comic book. Much like Craig Thompson‘s Blankets, Strangers in Paradise elevates the comics form into genuine literary greatness. The storytelling and insight are amplified by the collision of prose and visual art in a way that is disarming and authentic.

Central to SiP is a swirl of love that focuses on three main characters. LeeAnn Kriegh summed it up as “Katchoo loves David, but she’s in love with Francine, a mostly straight woman who returns Katchoo’s love just enough to break both their hearts,” and that’s just scratching the surface of a complex, beautiful and realistic story.

There’s a golden thread connecting everything we do — it strings the days together and is easily seen when we look back where we’ve been.
I always thought the thread was purpose — a self-defining core — but I was wrong.
When I look back now…
All I see is love.

Terry Moore is a master at keeping controversial subject matter such as polyamoury, sexuality, religion and politics deeply embedded in human experience. One of the real joys of reading SiP has always been the touching way the characters have reflected the conflicts in all our lives. Mr. Moore depicts life gently but unsparingly includes all the betrayal and heartache to be found in it alongside the joys. I especially appreciated how he included David’s Christian faith in the story.

For some reason it struck me that there were no real Christians in comics, in mainstream-accepted comics anyway. I thought, “Well, that would be one of the most revolutionary things I could do right now.” … I thought one of the most rebellious things David could do was just say, “I’m a Christian.”

I mean, being a Christian right now is the most uncool thing you could possibly be, whether it’s in comics or literature or TV or film or whatever. Pop-culture-wise, for somebody now to stand up and say, “I’m a Christian,” they’d have to be very anti-establishment. Unless, they’re standing in the middle of the Bible Belt surrounded by churches or something. But, you know, in mainstream culture, it’s just not acceptable any more. Which made it all the more fun for me. I like thumbing my nose at both the establishment and the revolution.
- Terry Moore, The Comics Journal #276

Strangers in Paradise will stand as one of the greatest stories told in the last couple decades. Full of humour, drama and tenderness, it never fell from its sustained genuineness. Terry Moore established himself as one of the finest storytellers working today and gave us a true gift through the years he has worked to create this story. Now that it’s finished, I can’t imagine a better time to dive in.

I don’t know why but I do
Dream of you.
Losing you
I dream of you.
I don’t know why but I do
Think of you.
Though we’re through
I think of you.
17.06.07 | View Comments

Passively Multiplayer

I’ve been PMOGing for a month now. Passively Multiplayer Online Game is a concept that combines data mining and gaming to create a unique web experience. It’s a convergence that actually provides some useful data, fun social networking and gaming that someone with no time to game can take part in. It’s still in early development, but it’s one of the new internet ideas that I’m genuinely excited about.

Passively Multiplayer Online Game

We carry mobile phones or laptop computers. We work, play and relate with these devices, leaving rich data trails. What control do we have over these trails? What feedback do they give us?
Video games give players a rich, immediate sense of presence and control in game worlds. How can we take this rich presence and player control from video games and apply it to online life?
PMOG follows people as they surf the web, giving them experience points, levels, items and currency. PMOG layers social gaming on top of web browsing.
PMOG stands for Passively Multiplayer Online Game. It’s like a Massively Multiplayer Online Game, except played passively. That means a lot of people just going about their life online. Our actions in our web browser feed moves into a game. That game shows us the characters and situations we create just by surfing the web!

I’m especially interested in seeing how my life online can be broken down statistically. PMOG relies on a Firefox add on and parses our online activity to generate an accurate and objective view of our life online. From a month of data I’m told I focus on DIY, web, news, shopping, reference and social areas of the internet, which seems rather accurate. In the future we might be able to use this data for many purposes, and I envision using it to see areas I have been neglecting over time.

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13.06.07 | View Comments

Taking Momentos Digital

Lately I’ve been undertaking a project of digitally cataloging my mementos in order to unclutter my life. I’ve been slowly moving into a more minimal mode of living for a long while now, but some items without use are still taking up space in my loft. I’ve heeded some advice from LifeHacker to catalog mementos with my digital camera and then throw them out. It was a weekend project that I’ve broken up into smaller sessions of decluttering.

It feels surprisingly good to be free of items that I had kept for years out of some attachment to their memory inducing quality. A photograph will not hold the same tactile, aromatic and other sensory cues, but that’s something I’m willing to give up. As wonderful as my memories are, a future of mobility and simplicity is far more appealing.

If you’d like some advice for undertaking a project like this, I recommend “Photographing Your Mementos.” I would add that using Picasa is an ideal way to organize, store and view your photos from this digitization.

Three Pens of Memory

Would you believe I had a ton of pens kicking around for the sake of memory? These three are ones I wanted to remember.

The silver one is from a job shadowing program I participated in while I was in high school. It was at an insurance company and I was following a computer programmer as he worked on Y2K problems. Somehow this didn’t deter me from entering the computer science program at university a couple years later.

The second is a pen I borrowed from my friend Sascha during high school. He was a true pen connoisseur and years later this pen still writes beautifully.

The final pen was given to me by the first girl I truly fell in love with. Ashley gave me this when she visited me for the first time

13.06.07 | View Comments

SelfKiss

Is it the ultimate expression of egoic tendencies? A brilliant non-dual project that removes the line between self and other? Or just postmodern art being the absurd beast it is?

SelfKiss

Whatever the verdict, SelfKiss is beautiful, in a “disturbingly erotic” manner. I came across this via SexyRSS, where the experience is described as follows:

Odd, very odd. Photoshopped pictures of various people made to look like they’re kissing themselves. I don’t know why that feels so strange to look at.

This uneasiness seems to be very common, with Hypnogogic echoing the sentiment:

Nope, these aren’t twins. Some are autoerotic, in the truest sense of the word, others are just visually fascinating, the remainder produce confusing feelings that I can’t express.

Translated from the original French, the introduction to the project may shed some light on the original intent:

The marvelous thing about a photo is that it captures a look, a gesture, an instant, a fleeting reality from which emotion springs. However, what is presented here does not exist, has never existed, and will never exist. But this technique puts us there, in front, like a tightrope walker on his rope, in an unstable balance between I believe it and I don’t believe it.
These instants were invented by Pupsam. And yet, indeed, this is a record of real events (reportage), since long searches and deep internal journeys were necessary to arrive here:
Starting from one consenting individual, imagine together his encounter with himself (not another, but his double), to create a couple that will embrace each other, then trace their posture, the spark in their eyes, and finally the abandon to the other that is me, to make visible the impossible kiss, monstrously shameless. And so? moments that are desired, dreamed, hidden at the bottom of us, denied… taboo! Perhaps the fleeting reality from which trouble springs.

I didn’t feel as much uneasiness as many who have commented on the series, but it is there, mixed with eroticism. A lot of questions arise when I reflect on this. What is your reaction to this?

08.06.07 | View Comments

How I Get 'Net-Social

Social networking is becoming a backbone of internet culture. The spark of connecting with others online can be endlessly rewarding, and exemplifies the value of the internet. Much of my interactions online are now done through various social networking sites such as Facebook, Live Journal and Zaadz. Social networking has a long way to go before it works smoothly, though.

The main trouble right now, I believe, is a lack of interoperability between the networks; it’s annoying and time-consuming to have to visit dozens of sites to keep up with what my friends are doing rather than looking at one page. Each site is offering a dynamic community and great features, but none is without some area it’s lacking in. I hope a decentralized method of interaction between the sites will arise. Some sites, such as Wink, are moving toward a decentralization of the social networking space, and that gives me some hope. So far decentralized social networking is in infancy, sadly.

Lifehack has a marvelous article on “That Whole Social Networking Thing” that addresses some other strengths and pitfalls we encounter in social networking.

If you haven’t figured this all out, the reason the world is going all social networking happy is because this is your means to connect to people directly… It’s a way to extend your audience of friends, colleagues, business partners, and teammates. The whole point of this is to build your new world map from the digits and bits and free hugs left floating out there on the Internet in search of you. Did you know that? People are trying to find you and connect.

I’d also recommend taking a look at “Hobnobberry 3.0” over at MediaSpin.

So for now I’m using a handful of social sites daily and keeping up with about a dozen more from time to time. I’d like to share some of my favourites. If you’re using any of them, feel free to add me as a friend there. My profiles can be found by clicking on the orbs for each network. I’ll try to keep this list comprehensive of all my social network activity. If you just want an overview of how I’m being social, check out my Wink profile. There’s a miraculous energy in that We space, isn’t there?

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08.06.07 | View Comments